me

sigh, so much going on, so much thinking, never enough time to do what i want.......
so it's thursday, december 12, 2002 @ 1:18 in the morning. i'm here, lying on my bed, thinking, pondering, contemplating so many things. i have so much running through my head sometimes, that i don't even know where it all begins or ends. i survived my history final today. holy crap that was rough. but somehow i made it through. i did the best i could. wow, i can not stop thinking about this girl. i totally just, right in the middle of the previous thought, stopped and wrote out a proposal to her. what is going on in my head? cause i could have sworn not 10mins ago i was jealous of her friendship with chad.... well, more jealous of the fact that she was talking more to him than to me. but i guess that's really my fault. though, i don't know, for some reason it bothers me that he knows/might know things that i don't. so how did i go from being jealous of a guy who used to scare me to death in regards to possibly losing justine to him to writing out a marriage proposal. i mean, we've got points 'a' and 'c' here, but no point b. and ya definitely need to go to 'b' before 'c' when traveling from 'a'. you can't do that any other way. oh my. i hope she does well on her finals. i hope she gets up on time. i didn't mean to seem mad at her when i was saying she needed to go to bed. :/ arg. i really despise woody. he really brings out the worst in me, and that's definitely not a good thing. i need a job. and i need to return my damn computer that keeps freaking out. it's making weird clicking noises every now and then. erg.

i'm sorry, babe, for thinking all this stuff. i don't mean to :( i love you.

posted by Ron @ 1:45 AM